i want to write you a million songs about how incredible you are and how you make me feel
i want to shout from the rooftops that i'm yours forever
i want to knit you a blanket so you can keep yourself warm with my love when i'm not around
i want to make you pb&j in the shape of hearts
i want to wake up next to you and kiss your morning breath everyday forever
i want to tell you every secret i have ever had and ever kept
i want to take pictures of us kissing so we remember what it was like to be young and in love
i want to tell our children stories of our adventures and teach them that love can surprise you
i want to grow old with you
dear God,
i know that we don't talk much but,
i need this more than ever.
dear God,
it's almost way too soon and
i can't bear to watch her break again
dear God,
it wasn't supposed to be that way, now
she's all shattered into pieces.
dear God,
i've heard you have a reason but,
i'm not sure that i believe it.
dear God,
you don't know
how much I need
to hear you say those words
you don't know
how much it means
to know that you mean it
you don't know
how hard it was
to let down that wall
you don't know
how safe I feel
wrapped up in your arms
you don't know
how much
i truly needed you
you don't know
how grateful I am
that you came along when you did
you don't know
how much I would give
to have you never leave my side
you don't know
you don't know
you don't know
but you should.
"You are all I want"
His gin soaked tongue would whisper roughly into her ear.
"You are beautiful"
"I love you"
Any girl
In any situation
At any time
Would kill for these words
From this boy
With eyes so beautiful
all the colors in the spectrum would never compare
But this girl
This time
This place
Like all the others
Yet so different
"Talk to me
When you can walk straight
When your words stop slurring
& when you'll remember it the next morning."
She told him, coming to her senses, twis
sun down
always meant guard down
which always meant
an open invitation for the memories
usually blocked and hidden
to come weaving their way back into my dreams
nights where my heartbeats matched the
tick tock
tick tock
tick tock
of that clock you never got around to fixing
it eternally sits
stuck at 4:16
must've been the point when
time stopped
we stopped
you stopped
needing me
sun up
time's up
clock still stuck
yet somehow
still making that
tick tock
tick tock
tick tock
pinned in one place
trying desperately to make up the pace
from sun down
to sun up
Im sorry
For how difficult goodbye is for me
Im sorry
That when were falling asleep
Wrapped in each other
I hold you so tightly
Use you as my life vest
To keep me from drowning in my dreams
Im sorry
That I miss you in ways you dont understand
In ways even I dont understand
Im sorry
That I make it so difficult for you
To live
To move on
To be with or without
Me
Im sorry
That you have to live with
How bad I miss you
How much it hurts me
Not
I sleep amidst a soundtrack of cars, trucks and busses
Creating the illusion of a world
Busy and alive around me
Its the silence that scares me
Wakes me out of my trance
And forces me to face the burning sunlight
Of being alone in this.
All those years swiftly slipped through my fingers
Left me staring at my palms
Wandering through the aftermath
Screaming out
Crying out
Begging for explanations.
The straight truth was never your strong point
You excelled in long, detailed reasoning, peppered with lost logic
We were stuck in a game of science vs. Romance
& I thought maybe if you loved me all the rest would fall into place
i want to write you a million songs about how incredible you are and how you make me feel
i want to shout from the rooftops that i'm yours forever
i want to knit you a blanket so you can keep yourself warm with my love when i'm not around
i want to make you pb&j in the shape of hearts
i want to wake up next to you and kiss your morning breath everyday forever
i want to tell you every secret i have ever had and ever kept
i want to take pictures of us kissing so we remember what it was like to be young and in love
i want to tell our children stories of our adventures and teach them that love can surprise you
i want to grow old with you
dear God,
i know that we don't talk much but,
i need this more than ever.
dear God,
it's almost way too soon and
i can't bear to watch her break again
dear God,
it wasn't supposed to be that way, now
she's all shattered into pieces.
dear God,
i've heard you have a reason but,
i'm not sure that i believe it.
dear God,
you don't know
how much I need
to hear you say those words
you don't know
how much it means
to know that you mean it
you don't know
how hard it was
to let down that wall
you don't know
how safe I feel
wrapped up in your arms
you don't know
how much
i truly needed you
you don't know
how grateful I am
that you came along when you did
you don't know
how much I would give
to have you never leave my side
you don't know
you don't know
you don't know
but you should.
You seem to have a thousand look-a-likes.
I pass them on the sidewalk
& on the street.
& in the hallways.
I am always praying it is you
Come to find me,
Come to save me.
A closer look,
I see I'm wrong.
You are not here,
nor will you be soon, or ever.
You are years away
& I am here, waiting for nothing.
Always.
I want you to know
that I need you
more than I realize I should.
Each day
I find a new reason to want you.
This distance
Kills me
slowly
frequently
& violently.
I honestly dont know what you see in me
but can you not forget?
I need you to remember.
The distance seems too great,
Like well never bridge this gap.
But if you could just remember
It wont seem as bad
You wont seem as far
I wont feel as alone
Baby, please remember
why were here
why we love
why we need.
Well get through this.
As long as you remember.
so come on boy,
don't be shy
just look me in the eye
& tell me what you're thinking.
"well,
all i know is that you're beautiful
& nothing in the world
can make this feeling go away
for love, we're alive
let's make it worthwhile
just stay with me forever
let me thrive on your smile."